I’ve mutually volunteered/been asked to do a presentation at work about autism in the workplace.
I feel kind of excited about it but also a bit unsure of where to start.
There are so many things to say but don’t want to say everything as to not overload people.
A million questions swirling and consuming my thoughts:
How detailed do I go?
How open should I be?
Do I really need to share that I sometimes have meltdowns in the middle of the night because insomnia can be overwhelming for me?
Will people understand what “executive function” means?
Will anyone care?
Will they think I’m making it up because they can’t see it?
Am I wasting my time?
Will I offend?
The list of ‘what if,’ ‘why,’ ‘because’ is expansive.
And then there’s public speaking.
But I’m comfortable being uncomfortable so have spoken publicly quite a bit when I’ve had to so it’ll be alright.
And, with age, comes experience and far less concern about what others think about me.
I’ve never really had that ego though; I’ve never really cared what other people have or do think of me.
I am hoping for the best with this presentation.
It does leave me feeling exposed and vulnerable to open up about my brain like this but
there is a strength within that vulnerability.
Sidenote: I actually was able to be a “normal” human being and spoke to my neighbors for the first time by myself last week. I’m considering that a life event so tagged the post as such. I was recoiling inside but it did feel good to show myself how far I’ve come. Little steps = big progress.